Talk about a stressful week! Have you ever had one of those weeks where you had the world of things to complete; all very important, and you felt like you were getting no where with any of them? That was what I experienced last week. There were so many things taking place and so many things I needed to do and everyday I woke up I felt more drained than the day before with a lot less zeal to complete my tasks.
Soon enough frustration and stress were my pesty companions that I couldn’t get rid of. Those two buddied up to me like white on rice and I felt like there was no way to get away from them. Things were so bad that I went to church, assisted in worship, heard an uplifting message on knowing the enemy and the moment I got into my car I felt like throwing in the towel and calling it quits. I was simply exhausted!
I like to think of times like this as “show time” for God. Somehow in those times when I feel my worst He has a way of showing up and sorting things out without me orchestrating a thing. Of course I know that He’ll show up in times like this because He promised it in 2 Corinthians 12:9
And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”
But somehow when things come crashing down I forget that verse and always reflect on it in hindsight.
So, imagine me sitting on the floor in my room, literally crying. I felt so lost and hopeless. I started wishing I could give everything back and retreat to a cave and hibernate for a while. In the midst of my depression I got a text from a friend asking if I was okay. Usually when people ask if I’m okay, whether I’m okay or not I simply answer yes, ( I know, that’s a bad habit I need to break), but yesterday I just couldn’t say yes. So I took a deep breath and admitted to someone other than God that I wasn’t fine.
Almost automatically my day took a turn for the better. My friend met me and we went out and had the most relaxing evening I’ve had in a long time. By the end of the night I was completely relaxed and I was able to talk to God without crying uncontrollably in His presence without words. I was able to tell Him exactly what was on my heart (not that he didn’t already know) and ask for His guidance.
God being the awesome God that He is and not being able to lie, held his end of the promise in Philippians 4:6 -7
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
By the time I woke up this morning God spoke to me and told me exactly what I need to do in order to continue this part of the journey. I woke up with a peace and a new found zeal and vision to do what I have to. Stress and Frustration has moved out (Thank God!) and peace has now taken up residence in my heart.
I wish I could find the right words to adequately explain the joy I’m feeling now. I feel peace and freedom, I’m looking back at all the times God has seen me through and I’m assured that he will see me through this period in my life as well.
Maybe like me you’re overwhelmed with the cares of this world and you’re feeling a bit down and out. I want you to know that the same Jesus that came through for me and picked me up out of the dumps, can come through for you too. Present your cares to him through prayer and thanksgiving and He WILL give you the peace to continue your journey.