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Off To Surgery :)

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Yes you read the title correctly. I’m going to be away a little bit this week because I have a minor surgery on Tuesday please God. The smiley face in the title of this blog and the picture of me smiling above might seem confusing. Especially when I make mention that the surgery is to remove a lump in my breast to have it tested for cancer.

I recently found a lump in my breast and when examined my doctor found that there were others in addition to the one I found. At first they thought it was a condition called fibroadenoma  which is common in women my age. Upon closer review the doctor found that the properties of the lump weren’t consistent with that of fibroadenoma and so he wants to remove the largest of the lumps (which is almost 4cm in size) to have it tested for cancer. While it is uncommon for women my age to have breast cancer and the disease is prominent in my family I still need to have this procedure done to be sure.

I’m honestly not worried about this. I know that my God is all powerful and wonderful and His will for my life will be accomplished. So I’ve sat and thought about the best and worst possible outcomes of my current situation.

The best that can happen is that the lump shows no sign of cancer and was just a growth. Worst case, it is cancer and well, God will treat with it how he deems fit. Either way there’s a testimony welling up in this and I’m ecstatic about it!!!

Sooooooooooo with that being said, I am going to miss you guys immensely over the next couple of days and I can hardly wait to come back and tell all of you about my experience. In the mean time keep me in prayer and get ready to hear how God moves in this situation.

Oh, and Terry if you read this please know that I’ll miss you and Al immensely and please please please give him all my love.

Stay blessed everyone!

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Protection On Holy Ground

IMG00568-20130212-0702Exodus 3:“Do not come any closer,” God said. “Take off your sandals, for the place where you are standing is holy ground.”

A lot of us are familiar with the story of Moses and the burning bush in the book of Exodus. Recently I’ve been examining my relationship with God and the change in my attitude toward negative situations and I’ve come to realize that once I’m in the presence of God I need not worry about anything except doing his will. When Moses saw the burning bush he was up on a mountain and his feet would have been protected from elements such as sharp objects, insects and venomous creatures such as snakes by his sandals. When he entered into the presence of God, he was allowed the freedom to cast his care of protecting himself from all of those elements aside by removing his sandals.

I believe that as a believer in Christ Jesus we are allowed the freedom of not having to worry about the dangerous and negative elements of life which surround us because like Moses we are constantly dwelling in the presence of God. Once we recognize that we are in God’s presence then we will have a peace in knowing that he will protect and take care of us. We will understand that our purpose is to fulfill his desire in our lives and we need not focus on the things of the world but keep our eyes constantly upon him.

In the past I’ve always been a bit of a worrier. Not just a worrier but an aggressive worrier!! I know you’re probably wondering “What exactly is an “aggressive worrier?” Well allow me to elaborate.An aggressive worrier is someone who worries and complains while trying to fix a problem they have no control over, without ever considering that they can give the entire situation to God and he will sort it out. That was me. Loud mouthed, control freak, worrier.

Today I am thankful that I am no longer that person and my attitude has made a drastic turn around for the better. Last weekend Trinidad and Tobago celebrated Carnival. In our country the festival is celebrated by revelry, lewdness, drunkenness and acts of sexual immorality. Basically everything that Galatians 5:19-21

19 The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20 idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21 and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

While I’m not judging anyone who partakes in carnival (especially since I myself participated in the years before I acknowledged Christ as my lord and savior), I made a conscious decision to devote my life and my body to the things of God. So instead of buying a costume and “playing mas” I went to camp with the youths of my church.

Firstly let me say that camp was AMAZING!! Believe me when I tell you that I would love to delve into the details of every aspect of camp but, I really need to share with you my experience of feeling unsurpassed peace in the midst of a depressing situation while in Tobago.

On my way to camp on Friday afternoon I lost my wallet on the boat. I noticed I didn’t have the wallet when I stopped to purchase food after arriving in Tobago. I was with a group of friends so I didn’t worry about finding it then because I knew my meal would be paid for. When I got to the camp site about an hour later I searched my bags I didn’t see the wallet in any of them. By this time I began to worry (not aggressively, but I was worried). I somehow convinced myself that I it might have been in the car and decided to look for it when I got up the next morning. As you can guess, the wallet was not in the car and after checking my bags all over again I realized that I might have lost it on the boat.

The boat could have had approximately 300 passengers traveling on it that evening. I had no control over who might have found the wallet and whether or not they would have left it with the relevant authorities. If you’re like me, losing your wallet means having to replace a lot of important documents. I remember speaking to God and telling him “Lord I really don’t care to get the money in the wallet back, I just don’t want to have to go through the hassle of replacing everything.” That morning I made my way to the port to find out if anyone found the wallet and turned it in. It was on that journey I began to understand my purpose in the kingdom. I started talking to God and I told him that while I wish I didn’t lose my wallet, if he had to make it that way in order to place me somewhere to do his will then so be it. I can’t begin to explain the peace that came over me immediately after I made that proclamation.

When I got to the port I was told that I’d have to come back later in the day to see if my wallet was on board the vessel. The old me would have become immediately despondent and melancholy however I did not harbor any of those feelings. Instead I was extremely happy and full of energy the entire day. I went back to the port at least two times after the initial visit and every time I went I was told to come back at a later time or another day. Still my attitude was one of joy and thanksgiving.

On the third day after I lost the wallet I finally got to go on board the vessel to check and see if anyone had found it. By this time I had already accepted that I might not receive it because God probably had a plan for my future and he needed to take the wallet away in order to fulfill that plan. As I made my way toward the vessel I remember asking God “Lord how is it that I’m this happy even in a situation like this where my situation is bleak and I don’t know what lies ahead?” In that moment I answered the question by acknowledging my feelings to be joy and not happiness. I smiled because it felt good to know that no matter my circumstances I would always be happy because I had the joy of the Lord. Little did I know then that God had an even deeper revelation for me regarding my question.

When I got on the boat the Captain returned my wallet to me with everything in it, including all of my money. I was so elated! When I got back to camp I couldn’t help but boast about the greatness of my God and the joy of being able to trust him in every situation. Now like I said before God revealed the answer to my question to me even after I thought I got my answer already. When I got back from camp and was reading the bible one night I was lead to read the book of Exodus from chapter two. That night chapter 3:5 stood out to me and when I got the revelation of that verse all I could do was cry and thank God.

God showed me that my desire to do his will and have a deeper relationship with him meant that I was constantly dwelling in his presence. Being in his presence allowed for me to cast all my cares and worries aside because wherever he is, is holy ground. And once I am on holy ground I can remove my sandals because he would protect me. I understand why I am able to accept the challenges of life with a smile and not worry about how things will work out because I know that once my eyes are fixed upon God and my desire is to allow him to have his way in my life then there is no need for me to worry about things I don’t have control over.

Just as Moses would not have had any control over any of the elements around him that could have caused injury to his feet, in the same way we do not have control over some of the circumstances in life which can cause us harm. However once we acknowledge that we are in God’s presence we are given the freedom to stop trying to protect ourselves and let our father in Heaven take care of us.

My encounters with Jesus are becoming more and more glorious each and every day. It’s an exciting feeling waiting on God to guide my steps and use me to fulfill a purpose for the kingdom of heaven. I pray that we can all reach to that place of being able to trust God to see us through every aspect of our lives while remaining humble and allow him to have his divine way in us.

If you have had an experience with God that you believe would encourage someone in their walk with God, please share your testimony with us at testifywithme@gmail.com

We look forward to hearing from you.

God Bless You!

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